postContiki/ postpompeii.

This is Love- Tom Read

What can separate me, from Your love O God
You will not forsake me, there's nowhere You cannot go.

Neither death nor life
No depth and no height
Can weaken Your love O God
And there's nothing in this world
in all of creation
That can take Your love away

This is how I know what love is
Though I'm a sinner, Christ lay down His life for me
And that's the greatest act of love in history
When my Jesus died for me
This is love

Who else can complete me, who can cover my sin
Nothing can defeat me, now that you live within

I will worship You, Give you highest praise
You gave Your everything, for You are truly great.

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I'm so addictted to this song.. although I can't say that the words truly reflect my current feelings. I guess that I can say that I'm in a spiritual rutt.. I know that I will eventually get to where God wants for me.. but I'm still trying to recover from some disapointments I've experienced in the last few months. Granted, I had an AWESOME beyond amazing summer. I met so many new people this summer. I just need to start believing in my God again.. and let him show me how faithful he still is.. that he'll never forsake or leave me abandoned despite difficult and frustrating circumstances that occur in succesion.

Having said that, its' gonna be an adventure for Michelle and myself, since we're both in charge of the spirtitual wellbeing and support of our cell group. Its definitely not by coincidence that he placed the two of us together as co-leaders this year. HE knows the struggles we've both encountered, the way that we can share with each other honestly and just the sincerity to see wounds mended within ourselves and within our fellowship... to see HIM work within our relationships with each other. Sometimes, I wonder why I agreed to be a cellgroup leader... I feel as though spiritually, I'm so much weaker than a lot of my cell group members, that I'm just not prepared to lead... but then maybe God has somethign in store for me in having to take this responsibility ? I just don't want to act as though I've got it all together.. I want to be real, to struggle, to be able to relate to others BECAUSE of these struggles.. and to be a servant rather than a leader within our cell group.

Aside from that, got to watch amazing race 8 yesterday !!! with the girls downstairs .... my new neighbours Melissa, Katherine, and Laura .. in 4th year eng.. ahaha how we got to know each other is quite random aside from them being my neighbours (I mean last year, I didn't even know what the guys downstairs looked like, let alone their names). It was a great time of procrastination, a little piece of television indulgence... what to say, the show has and alway was, a brilliant concept. Now i should get back to work.!!! p.s. Greek is a frustrating language!!! (but beautiful.. when or if EVER I understand it!! )

Cheers,
-v